The 'Message'

What is it that makes me, at some point, txt/email a ridiculously soppy message to the object of my affection? Thankfully (and, knowing me, actually rather incredibly) I managed to refrain from sending 'the Message' to the Toy Boy telling him that I miss him. Even though I do. I do not know what it is that makes me do this. I did it with TAB, telling him that I loved him, I've done it in the past to other people. Sometimes I just need to say things to people that I can't always say face to face for various reasons which usually results in them running off completely scared* although I think most of the time they were poised to flee anyway... Anyway 'the Message' is relationship suicide, I know this, I just rarely have the ability not to send it. Does anyone else have this problem? *and they are completely and utterly justified in this reaction, I've been told several times that I'm just a very scary person